price is sick~~

The bad weather make everyone feel uncomfortable and weak. But you are in sick now. It's serious more than before. I afraid you become more serious later, can you handle yourself? Recover earlier and get the last few days to take more photos!! Take more rest.
I don't want to be a trouble woman in front of you. I just wanna to make you happy. We didn't have much things to talk in phone. However, i always think i am trouble you in last second after hanging the phone.

Remember when throat is pain:
1. eat medicine
2. drink warm water more
3. don't open window fully, avoid the cold air to make your throat uncomfortable
4. don't talk so much just sleep. and i won't trouble you .
5. eat CHUN PUI PAY PA GO
6. If sweet sweet wife is not here, just think about her and no need to take care of her.
7. If sweet sweet wife is here, just listen to her and you will be recover.




i feel bored in home. Although i usually at home alone, i feel bored again because i need to study. Everyday study and didn't talk much. In fact, i don't like only one in home. i just like each people own a room. It's enough. now, is too quiet.......

Easter sunday~

Today is a unusual sunday. I went to Tai Wo and prepare dance and sing with you all. It had little bit different than before. I remember last year. i didn't pay much more attention to it just like a small potato to see you guys play together~~~But this year i go with you and the little baby..........to get eggs~~~~~~last year i was happy that i can have an egg.......although it is only an egg, i really feel happy about that~~~~
This year you have me come together to eat the egg~~~^^~~~
just like a little kids to get sth~~!

Easter holiday~

Today is friday, it's different from before because i need to have a busy time table in last few months. I need to work until 8:30. However, today i sleep until 11:30~~hohohohoho~~~~~~~Although i don't have yr accompaniment. Last night, i eat dinner with family. I know mum was bored in this week. Anut was back to Canada. Mum may suddenly feel bored without her sister go to shopping everyday. That's a big contrast~!~When Anut visit hk that week, mum even phone me much much less than b4 and also far from my expectation, and finally i need to phone back to her~~~hahahaha~~~~
Back to yesterday, that new shopping mall is great~~although it still hasn't opening all shop....but it already enough for me to see~Also , the Tao Heung Inn............is so cheap~~50% off~~~that's also far from my expectation~~and finally the bill is $240 for 4 person~! We can't eat all of the things~~~but i was so full~~until today~~~~haha~
Today you go to take photos, i stay at home with family. That's the things i don't need to think about you so much~~~if i was only one in tai po home, i will feel bored and want yr accompany~~v v ~ so i decide to back kwun tong~~~~On the one hand, i can with family, on the other hand , i can not to think about you so much lei~~~^^~
Seeing old school frd dairy, i always want to being better than her. maybe i was still angry about the past things. Although i don't want to think about it anymore and i agree that it's the past things..........it's independent from now, i still can't leave about it. I want my frds know about how gd i am now, how great my bf is, and how sweet btw us~~~How much GPA i got and how gd i stay with my new polyu frds. They are better than u , they would not have any jealous and 小圈子. They really treat you as a frd although it's not a deep frdship~ But i think i want to told them about this, am i treat my old frds still as a frds??haha~~i don't know. But one thing i know is i don't want to deep into with them anymore. I don't regret i stay with them for over 2 yrs, but i do regret about i trust them as frds before. Maybe i still can't forget the old things that i angry about it~~~pls~~pls~forget la~~~~i have gd gd bf, i have one best frd that's maybe already enough in life.........
Now, much things i need to manner. Study in school, music theory, family and bf and church i think it's enough for me to make those things gd . Other things add more, maybe i will do it worse than before.....right??that's a simple life.
Can i live with a very exciting life?? Being more beautiful, and fully confidence to walk on street, try more things, and just seems like you when you were in University. Can i control it? or i need to trade off ??
everyboday know the opportunity cost. When people action, it's mean that the marginal benefit larger than th marginal cost. therefore, they would do that things. But, do people can really count how much the marginal benefit is and how much the marginal cost is?? That's may have sth they cannot count for, and sth they really can't don't know~

Thursday, day off.....

Today, we decided go to Victoria Park to see flowers. However, we didn't go ....but i really want to have a look at once.

I love my grandmother, when anut give me grandmum pics, that's really sad. Her life is sad. She is beautiful in young, but she married to my grandfather , a really special people. Grandmum is brave in her whole life, her brain is rational. However, my grandfather is foolish. From mum telling, they argued in whole time, even they fight. Did they love each other? Or they just want to satisfied their physical feeling??Find a man who can give her life better?

Now, Grandmum become worse, and worse, even take a pic , she didn't look at the camera, her head can't stand straight, mouth cannot control for eating. That day is her birthday, why she didn't show laugh on her face???what is the target of living???want to live in tomo???I was sad, really really sad today. I want to see her. Okay??

My sister in canada also is brave and confident. She said, ' Stop laughing, I love my clothes. It's mine, i will wear it, why not?' I like this!~Be strong! I cry............

SUSHI 2

I made my first sushi to you. I remember the last time i make it is in child. That's mum make with me. However, i think i make it very gd taste. and besutiful.......hehehehe~~~~~So happy to make sushi with you. I like to eat that you make the BIGBIG CRAB EGG SUSHI.~~~^3^~

Today friday morning, i unusually get up in time. Last night, i sleep in 10:00 ~~~~hohoho...enough sleep. I hand up the wrong topic for english writing and first it make it worried. But after miss Agnes tell me i can hand it after school, i relax~~~

Try to emphasize the happiness, forget and forgive things you don't like~!

My lovelove husband, i really really very love you ar~~~~everytime i want to see you is i don't want to leave you anytime~!
Everytime i angry that you go to take photo and left me .....i was sad.......i know i will see you ............but ....i don't want to leave you~~~~really.................

Sushi

Today, after teaching little children, I went to Jusco to buy the food that make shushi tomorrow. Many things i want to make, but you like the Fu Pai Sushi. I was very exciting when i found it!!! Pack of rice, fish eggs, and the sweet egg!! the most i can found it. However, i don't know i can make a good and tasty food in tomo. Hope you would like it!!~^^!~

8/03/05

Today is Tuesday. Yesterday i studied for only a little time, but i was sleepy and woke up at near 11:00. OoO~ After then, i go through the tutorail exercise and i found it was difficult to write and become more confusing. HAHA~~~Think only the theory ~~!!don't think more ~
Luckily, the exam is fine and quite challenging. That's not too difficult but think is needed to get the answer. I can manage the time and finished all question. But other classmate not. How many marks i can get????36?maybe i will have some mistake........

Then, after school i came to TT home having dinner! His mum cooking is different with my mum. They like heavy tastes. I know you are happy that i came to your home having dinner although only an hour. After then, i walk with you to go to school, and i back to home. Finally, i walked for half an hour more to arrive home. Tired. Sleep for half an hour on sofa. wake up and do things slowly. Today the most free day in whole week.

6th march,05

Today is sunday. But yesterday i really have a bad dream that make me scare , i wake up. Yesterday night really can't sleep well and enough. My dream is the most terrible one in my life.

In my dream, i saw i was same as now in my life. But one thing i know that is i get a body check and knowing i got cancer. @0@ !!! But i was unusually quiet to face my life in future 3 months. In that dream, only character is you and mum. Mum sure will know i got sick. However, her mind is thinking she already loss mine, thinking i will be died. Therefore, she won't be so sad. I will take therapy, but the chances of success is not high. I start to plan what i should do, after my death, how about you??Will you be so sad, find other wife or always stay with me? I know i can't told you about i will died in 3 months later. I want to be happy in future 3 months, get the chances to stay with you, do the best to treat you. I will loss my hair, wear the hat, stay in hospital. Nevertheless, i will go to church as usual and go to school. Nothing i want to do more other than that. Finally, mum loss confidence, i can't told you about my sick, i feel so painful. Then, i stay in toilet cry cry cry, there's the only place i can express my emotion. Before you and others, I was so brave to face my sick. But i afraid of lonely, only me go to the final place. Cry cry cry, and painful in my heart, I woke up lying on bed. At that time, i can't judge where i am, am i really got sick? or i still dreaming? Later than, i found i was sleeping only, luckily, and found i can still living and stay with you.......That's what i happy. But this dream is the most real one, and sad one. so tears drops fall from my eyes. That's similar to i went for a journey. I got so me ideas of what i treasure the most

Many times, i dream. I got the sweet sweet one, terrible one, unreasonable one. many many, but i was so tired to dream.

New car car~~^^~

today, you came to my school and drove me back to kwun tong. o'm veryvery very happy!!! Before the last lesson, i was already so tired but i want to see you, because i know you are in kowloon there.

Very happy that you back to tai po and came here to see me. I run to see you, but due to my short sight , i can't see you . HAHAA~~~The new carcar came to see me also....^^. I still thinking the best method to get up on car. Your old old car, i already find the method to get on car, however, she need to say goodbye to me~~~Although i haven't know SHE so much, I miss HER. Because everythings say goodbye is a sad things, i don't wanna change.

BAck to today , i was afraid to sit here. Because you don't drive a lot of this car, and the road are busy. However, i love to sit near you.

CLose to you~~~
~~~~~^^~~~~~~

know tonight you will be hard~!!!i will wait you back ~~~love love yan~~

Happy Wednesday~~

Today is wednesday. It was a rainy and cold day. After school time, i was so happy to having my lunch with you. ~~~~after that, sleep on the train. It was so comfortable. Although i was tired , i need go to teach little child.

Those two little things are really so lazy. Older brother don't want to learn any english. I became more angry, everytime he don't want to write the meaning in chinese. You don't remember is ok, but you don't write down meaning to find out the answer is impossible!!!!!! Those easy things are you need to learn in future, you don't learn in today, you also need to learn in future. Maybe he don't understand today.............i don't know what can i do to help him...........~~~~
The little brother is better and more cute. Although he is also lack of knowledge, but he will remember the words in every time. Because he will forget every time, i need to tell him every time........today he can remember ~^^~~~but i have teach him this chapter for 2 weeks~~~

Today is so cold~~~~and i don't know why i am so tired..................always....tired~
But every wednesday i was so happy~~^3^~

My summary in reflective report

I agree with Julie's point that we need to care people around you and it is also important. However, I cannot totally agree with Julie is "when a friend dies, don't we all share the blame?". Different people have their own situation and difficulties in life; therefore, writer could not judge all Sma's friends should be blamed. By describing in detail what problems Sam has, from depression, then relying on alcohol, and stuck with probation, readers can clearly know how Sam's life change. In my own experience, I also meet some people like Sam. Depression make them think only unidirectionally. Also, their families don't realize them so much. As a result, they would like to stay with friends. I like the first paragraph of this passage, Writer did not write his friend, Sam, at first, but wrote his own feeling. His feeling attract readers to read. Also, it shows how sad writer is. I can feel writer was regreted to his friend. The passage made me feel he want to return the time to Sam still had not died. Then, writer could care him, listen to him and help him leaving from problems. From writer's real story, readers can review how they do in life. Do they take enough care to their families and friends? What else they can do to help people aroud you? It would not be too late to start to care from today!